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I haven’t been on in nearly a month, I’ve had so many rants I’ve needed to release, but y’all know I don’t usually post my own words on tumblr. It’s a massive array of reblogs of humorous pictures.
So let’s give this a try again.
You know, when you neglect friends, it really comes back to hit you hard. I’ve never been okay with being left out, even when they don’t realize it or whatever, but come on. How the fuck would you feel if I had 5 tickets to go see like… Justin Bieber get pied and I took our mutual friends and gave the last free ticket to your mother. Well, okay, maybe that’s a bit exaggerated, but would it be possible if you could consider my feelings every now and then? Especially when you’re hanging out with our mutual friends, it’s always nice to be remembered, like a quick little text: Hey bitch, you free today? Rather than me finding out through random Facebook pictures and posts.
I’m not good at organizing group go outs, since I’m never th one organizing them. I admittingly forget about people sometimes then all hell goes loose when things end up on FB then I get the “WHEN DID YOU GO OUTZ?! Y U NO TAKE ME?” I apologize to those moments, but I don’t go out often so it probably happens once a lunar eclipse (which has happened recently, but I have actually not gone out recently, oh dear God, these eclipses get more out time than I do).
As of recently, I’ve been further drifting from my friends, close ones that I’d honestly like to keep for a while. I can never make it to any outings… I’m being drowned in my work schedule and choreographing for Chelsea’s cotillion court :/. Hell I barely have time for myself… which I really need as of lately. I’m always tired, always irritated, always ready to smash my head on the ground (thanks for the suggestion Angela L O L). It’s really stressful, I want to be able to hang out with my friends, especially on my last year. I don’t reply to texts, I barely reply to Facebook posts, and I’m not exactly a phone person overall so… I can see why everyones drifting.
Honestly it hurts to see everyone else hanging around with each other while I sit back excluded. I like company too, but I think I’m beginning to grow too tired to care.
I wish someone would talk to me.
